World Suicide Prevention Day… what does this day mean to me?
Last year on Suicide Prevention Day I was struggling to find my way in my new role, one I was not quite comfortable in… Attempt Survivor
I had recently become involved with the Out of the Darkness community walk on Oahu, and the President encouraged the committee to post on FaceBook “why we cannot be replaced”. That was a huge step for me, but I decided I wanted to attempt to speak out. I had finally broke my silence I wanted to push outside of my comfort level.
This is what I shared last year on FaceBook:
The progress I have made since then is remarkable. I have started a blog, I have stopped hiding behind fear, and I am owning who I am now. Forever, I had put on a brave face, and then I had hidden behind my fear and shame for attempting to take my life by suicide. Tonight, as I sit here finally able to have a few minutes of quiet, I am proud of who I am becoming. Not only have I been able to be an active participant in the walk this year, but I’m humbled to be a guest speaker at the opening ceremony.
I was grateful that I accepted the challenge to share “Why I cannot be replaced” last year. This year I purchased my World Suicide Prevention Day pack from To Write Love on her Arms, (TWLOHA) and I am proud to share my story and why No One Else Can Play My Part.
I was recently challenged by a high school friend to publicly state three things each, for seven days that I am grateful for; the challenge was accepted. Phil is a family therapist, who is honest about his personal struggles, and he has helped me to be honest and grow in my new role as attempt survivor. He’s asked me hard questions, and really pushed me to think of the answer that applies, not what will just placate. I appreciate his insight and friendship.
Last year on World Suicide Prevention Day I felt like I was going through the motions, this year I feel like I am finally in motion!